cantgethisright (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

you are a total jerk making the goo goo dolls the background music for a facts about self harm video. hooray for youtube, any idiot can now publicly display their average (or below) high school-psych final project.

THEREisHOPE123 (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

im here for any of you. mail me. watch my videos. hang in there. keep your head up.

guyslade (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

i found sealing your emotions and alienating yourself and turning everything into a joke is much more preferable to self harm since it doesnt hurt and if done right you will never be sad again

Ghaijinj (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

And also in a state of mind that I can't tell the difference between good or bad, and therefor I make the wrong choices... AGAIN. Life's unfair. <3

Ghaijinj (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

and when I DO find help. it ends up being kicked back twice the speed. and therefor I feel fucking depressed and flee towards pain again. and the next day I'll be like... Life's good, you know. hiding behind a smile as they say. Wherever I go I get a shitty comment thrown to my face about the most stupidest things and that can really work on your mind. plus all the problems I'm suffering makes it even worse. I'm in a state of mind that I don't know what to do anymore.

Ghaijinj (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

But I can't rely on myself if I think I'm pathetic... understand? I've got nowhere to go. I flee towards pain and the thought that everything will be okay if I leave this world. And that's currently the only thing I can focus on... and I simply cannot trust Myself because I do now know what I'm capable of doing in certain cirumstances. and if I mean Everyone around me keeps dissapointing I mean EVERYONE, including myself... I can't seem to make the right choice. I always take the wrong choice.

Ghaijinj (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

Autism kids have trouble communicating in real life because they react and respond to things differently, they see things differently. on internet it's easy because noone knows who I am. Do you get my point? About your respond... I see your point... honestly, I appreciate it aswell. but just like you said, maybe I should rely on myself and only myself. but then you stated ''you'll look down at your scarred up arm and think ''I'm Pathetic''''. I think BOTH statements are true.

ridleitthiswayorthat (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

Oh my god.. I get you want to feel pain but holy shit! I wanted scars when I cut but I didnt want my whole body to have dips and bumps like that bad enough to be completely deformed or what ever. holy shit..... I hope she is doing better now..

LoveableShelly (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

thats why you need help. When my cousin committed sucide, i went to a counseller. If people keep disapointing you, then rely on yourself and only yourself, you often hear people say they trust no one but themselves, maybe thats what you should do. You need some serious help. and cutting is not the answer. you'll look down at your scarred up arm and think "im pathedic" and maybe you will get yourself some real help. and i thought Autism kids couldnt communicate.

Ghaijinj (December 31, 1969 at 4:59 pm)

ever since I was born I've been neglected by my parents, everyone around me keeps dissapointing me and abandon me. each time I search for help it just kicks back. I'm manic depressed. I'm addicted to several things. I'm suffering from authism. Bulimia, I'm not 100% in my head. My best friend has committed suicide. I've got NO shoulder to cry on. I CAN'T find any help. I've got SOMETHING to live for, but that just gets further and further away from me. I hope this clears things out a little.